One of those...

It's just one of those days.  Yesterday was similar.  I just need to get this out of my system so I can more effectively continue my day, and typing is faster than writing.  Plus, I thought this might make some of you laugh a little, because I'm feeling a bit snarky.  Also, I seldomly write a "random what Kiki is feeling" post anymore, so I decided now would be a good time.

I hardly ever feel like I'm actually *looking* for something to happen that would make me upset, but yesterday and today it's like part of me was searching for a reason to be peeved.  I had to really remind myself that I was just in a mood, and I wasn't actually upset... but part of me wanted to be upset.  See the inner conflict, here?  I do.  There were things that would make me laugh or help me feel content and subdued, but the on-edge feeling didn't go away, and still hasn't.  I don't want to feel angry, but, as the post title refers to: it's just one of those days.

I feel like everything has the potential to go wrong, and that it probably will.  The pragmatic side of me realizes this isn't true, but I still feel it.  I just want to be lazy and have everything fall together perfectly for me.  But then again, just sitting around makes me anxious.  Inner conflict, again.  I feel kinda twisty inside because my brain can't decide what it wants.  I probably  just want to turn off.

Yes, that's it.  I want to just shut down and make my brain stop intruding on my inner peace for a bit.  So much has been going through my head that I think it's starting to scream at me that it has had too much stimulus.  Sorry, brain, I promise after finals you can have a few hours to veg.  But, even then, I don't think it will fully veg.  I'll still be thinking 5 miles a minute.  I wish it would all just

STOP.

But it wont.  Silly brain, you don't know how to give yourself a break.  I need to teach it how to.  But, the thing is, it's MY BRAIN, so I actually can't *teach* it anything.  Does anyone have some advice on how to make your brain leave you alone for a few hours??

I just feel tense and frustrated.  I probably need yoga or something, but I don't feel like stretching or deep breathing right now.  Maybe after I've actually been a little productive I'll feel better.  But I've had a hard time feeling productive with all of this stuff rushing through my head.

Which brings me back to the original reason for this post.  I just need to get it all out.  But, really, it's impossible to get it ALL out, isn't it?

How frustrating.

It's just one of those days.