A heart that pleads/A letter from the heart

 Are you curious?

Do you want to know what I might say?

Do you want to know me?

That's okay.

Unacknowledged.

Find a way to express

Is trapped knowledge

Of my own experience

Sticking to me -- finding ways to pinch and press?

A desire to know and to understand

To reach out and see if you'd take my hand

These swirling thoughts, would they ever become plans?

Will you let me speak freely and take a stand?

Rather than the trapping and wrapping my impressions away

in boxes tucked perfectly so they'll stay

Unacknowledged.

Are you curious?

Do you want to know what I might say?

Do you want to know me?

That's okay.

Turn the feelings into knowledge

The wonderings to something concrete

Allow to process and be complete

To fold out the boxes instead of retreat

Unacknowledged.

Reach Out

 Mentally planning to reach out

Only to freeze up and not

When the distance and space you thought you'd have to prepare

And gear up

Closed more quickly than you anticipated

Entice. Tease. Request. Implore.

All the same connection we're vying for.

Worry and excitement, inseparable twins

Linked in a pattern so the heart can win

Running through the paths where my thoughts spin

Looking for something to express, akin

To what I desire to have or be

The messy and tangled of thoughts left unvoiced

Beside clacks of bangles of words I've made the choice

The share

Even though part of me wishes to erase

To go back to before you knew

Return to the chase

Of finding me

Not binding or blinding me

Walled off with doubt

To before all those spills you now know about.

Of building this person who's puzzled, corrupt

Willing my thoughts to interrupt

And find ME

Authentic and refusing to hide

But maybe it's better to keep the unfinished inside

No. No more magic in jars.

It's time to unscrew the cap

Let it fly to the stars.