Dancing Ripple

I feel so much more complete when I write.

Dancing Ripple

Empty is the heart of vain sincerity

Blinded are the eyes who try too hard to see

Belonging is the cry, the need, and plea

Something closed inside whispers "look, discover me"

Dancing water

Stagnant feelings

Pointedly unbreakable

Breakable at flex

Heart-filled daughter

Sleepless reelings

Seemingly unshakable

Shake and end the hex

Folded hands and knees- a strength

Silent is the shout at length

Darkness without reason stays

Soon, cleverly it plays

Comfort discovered

Circling, pleading

Frozen. One frame.

One simple address

Like no other

Constant heeding

Truthfully claim

Partial is the mess

Mixed reflections and fond complexions

Untold lenghts of past connections

Dancing ripple

Ever growing

In place it falls

Never knowing

Tell your friends a story...

Lemons took the challenge. Here is his story. It is called:

There was a young boy who was obscenely large. No one liked to look at him because he was so fat! He was 2 years old, smart as your average 30 year old man, and somehwere around 220 lbs.
And he would waddle.
Which people hated.
Cause all the popular fat kids would roll.
In any case.
Everytime he would waddle by, some one would cry "Dough BOOOOOOOOOY!" And everyone would shield there eyes. Becaues of this, it became really easy for this kid to steal things.
Anyway.
So he liked to steal things cause nobody could see.
And he decided to take advantage of that.
But one day he took it way to far.
He tried to steal the shoes of peoples feet!
And so he would waddle, and hug the persons leg. And the feeling of so much fat on a persons leg was rather disturbing.
and so the person would turn into a bat and fly away.
But suddenly.
Everyone was turning into bats!
And so this kid was like
"Now its my turn!"
So he journeyed to the highest cliffs of the U.S. to attempt his transformation.
He stood at the edge.
Thought about cookies and fattening donuts
and yelled into the sky:
"NEVER BEFORE HAS ANYONE..." Then he realized those were all the english words he knew.
So he just jumped.
from 80,000 ft high.
Hoping he would reach a safe landing, cause he didnt know how to transform yet.
He was biting his toes! Pretending to tickle his sisters nose!
And then he realized.
the oreos he ate the the night before...
They were fat free!
This was so heart aching to this boy.
And I Think ill give him a name.
His name was Antonio Sanchez deMucho Sancosi.
And as he was falling,
He tore his heart out, (or at least the fake stuffy one that he shoved up his shirt every day)
And yelled at it "NEVER BEFORE HAS ANYONE!!!!!!!!!" And shoved it back in his shirt, and grabbed on the cliff that he had fallen 40,000 feet down, so he was basically holding on to a rocky wall 40000 feet above the ground.
He was worried.
So worried.
Like, really worried Kiki.
The worriedness of him made him grow more worried.
Which worried him for being worried about being worried.
And this began to happen over and over again.
Until he was worried 8 times.
But then.
He overcame his fear...
So this kid overcame his fear.
He somehow rolled up the wall and made it back to the surface of the cliff, and began waddling home.
But before he got home
he would knock on everydoor
and tell the only joke he knew!
"Never before?"
and then people would say "What?"
and he would say "HAS ANYONE!"
and he would laugh until the people slammed the door in his face.
Eventually he thought that was actually a good thing.
Cause he was so full of himself and his joke, that surely good things had to come to pass because of ti.

it.

Anyway.
He made it home
and his family was gone.
There was a note on the table
but he couldnt read it.
cause he only knew four words.
So he sat down./
And cried about his family being gone.
He wanted to tell his joke so bad.
But then his family got home
...they were just grocery shopping.
And his mom came up to him and said "Son, you are really overweight. Its about time you overcame all this jiggle honey pickle. Cause you know, there are a lot of people in this world that like to eat dat shuga stuph, and befo they know wha git em, they turn into bats. And sonny boy, if you eva turn into one of dem bats...."
she stood up and left.
His mom was a mystery to him.
Her accent would constantly change as she spoke.
But he knew what she was saying when she spoke that way.
Anyway.
Antonio turned into a whale spirit.
Cause he knew that whale spirits easily touch souls.
And he flew around to all over the earth
blessing people with peanuts and many other things that they were all allergic to
and thus ended the planet of Zilutyalk.
O.O

Esplode This Whole House

Title courtesy of adorable Bri~.  We were playing with Legos, and he was telling me about his Lego guns: 
"This one is so huge it can esplode this WHOLE HOUSE!!"
He says many cute and funny things, most of which I forget before long, but they still make me happy - and this one has relevance to the rest of the post. Hey, sometimes things actually make sense. What a relief.
My family is in California this week.  Why? Because some of us are moving there.  Jules' house in Utah is all cleared out.  The Muffin described it as a carcass. Some things were sold, some given away, and most loaded into a UHAUL and totted across the state, er, states.
After a very long drive, and very much wanting to plop down on the first bed or couch I could find, I was told we would be unloading this UHAUL - tonight.  A little flustered, and definitely more than a little impatient, I dutifully trudged outside to help, probably mumbling about my anger and fatigue...
Jules: "Kiki, chill out."
Kiki: *exhales* "I'm chill."
Jules: "That's my girl."

And so, we unloaded.
Then, when we were done, the house looked like, well,
ESPLODED.
(Heh, I rhymed.)

Boxes. Furniture. Bags. More boxes. EVERYWHERE.
But it was all inside. Well, except the stuff that was put in the shed... or on the back porch.
I was so so tired and frustrated.  When we were just about done, I sobbed out of exhaustion. The Muffin plopped down a mattress that we had just dragged in amongst the other furniture, slapped on a sheet and a blanket, and I went to bed.
It's been a little crazy trying to organize things and function in this little "esplosion", but my family is a group of troopers, so we're doing okay.
At the same time, I feel like I'M going to esplode.  There is so much going through my head.
Decisions to make.
Things to convince myself I'm okay with.
Things I'm really *not* okay with that I need to figure out how to fix.
Worry about things that may soon change.
Peace from the previous worry because of the powerful comfort of the Lord through the Holy Ghost.
Conversations with Grandma (who I am very grateful for, by the way).
Trying to concentrate on only the good.
More decisions.
And a heck-of-a-lot of self analyzing.

Esplode This Whole ME.

But it's all going to be okay, because even when it seems no-one else GETS IT (and trust me, it seems like this a lot), I know one person who does.  He is the one who has given me the consistent, unceasing, and powerful comfort I have needed in this crazy life.  He is, or rather, they are, Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. How grateful I am.
"And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times,
It's YOU, it's you,
You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word,
You're everything."

(This song just esploded with meaning for me.)
He is everything, and I could not, COULD NOT go on without Him.

I also could not go on without my friends who cheer me up and support me. Thank you.
Onward and upward in this esploding life of mine. Cheers.
<3Kiki

Avengnerds

 

"And there came a day, a day unlike any other... when Earth's mightiest heroes found themselves united against a common threat... to fight the foes no single superhero could withstand... on that day, The Avengers were born.  " - Fury

 "I thought we were having a moment."

"I was having 12% of a moment."  - Stark and Pots

"His first name is Agent!" - Stark

"What's the matter, scared of a little lightning?" 

"I'm not overly fond of what follows." - Stark and Loki

 [By the way, once the lightning started, I knew exactly who was coming, and I became incredibly excited.  Thor is my favorite. :)]

"There is only one God, and I'm pretty sure he doesn't dress like either of them."  - Captain America

"No hard feelings Point Break, you've got a mean swing." - Stark

"Dr. Banner, your work is unparalleled. And I'm a huge fan of the way you lose control and turn into an enormous green rage monster."- Stark

"He's my brother."

"He killed 80 people in two days."

"...he's adopted." - Thor and Widow

"You people are so petty... and tiny."  - Thor

"There is no throne, there is no version of this where you come out on top! Maybe your army will come, maybe it's too much for us, but it's all on you! Because, if we can't protect the Earth, you can be da[rn] sure we'll avenge it!" - Stark

"I have an army."

"We have a Hulk" - Loki and Stark

"Stark, we need a plan of attack!"

"I have a plan - attack!" - Captain and Stark

"Let's go, Legolas."  - Stark

"Doc... I think now is the perfect time for you to get angry."

"That's my secret Cap, I'm always angry."- Captain and Banner

"...and Hulk? - Smash."  - Captain America

"Guys, I'm bringing the party to you!"

"...I don't see how that's a party."  - Stark and Widow

"I am a god! I am not going to be bullied by a - "

**SMASH FLAIL WHIP POUND SMASH**

"Puny god." - Loki and Hulk

"What happened?  Please tell me nobody kissed me."

"We won."

"Oh, good." - Stark and Captain

AVENGERS is now my favorite movie.  Wow, it's so good.  The dialogue, as is illustrated above, is incredibly clever and quite hilarious; the actors were absolutely amazing; and each hero got a substantial amount of face-time.  It was so very well done, and I Loved it Loved it Loved it.

Oh, and the best way to watch a superhero movie is with a bunch of nerds who Love it just as much or more than you do.  Why?  There is a wave of anticipation when a new hero is about to be introduced, and a roar of excitement once they are.  Man that was great.

Until next time!

Kiki

Wetsock?

You know, it kinda sounds like "what's up?"
Ya ok it's not that funny.

I saw this wet-hair-rolled-in-a-sock idea that's supposed to give you these way cute curls when it dries:

Awesome! So I decided to try it.

I made a little sock-bun

Then I put my hair in it. It looks promising, yes?

.... not exactly what I expected. At all.

It's a wavy, tangly mess.

Well, if I ever need a wavy and unkempt look for some costume or something, here's one way to get it!

I guess I'll style this mess with a curling iron or something.  Another novel styling idea failed. Better luck next time!

Also - AVENGERS TONIGHT! Gosh I'm excited. :)

Pins; made of bottle rings, paper, safety pins, lots of hot glue, and silver paint.

 ...

Also, we're going to Wingers for dinner. :) Yum yum yum.

Inspiring Professor-Student Conversation

This has been floating around, and I finally read it.  I liked it so much, I wanted to share it - but, if you're like me, the first few times you saw it you probably didn't click "read more", or even see that it SAID "read more"... I thought people were suggesting I read what was on the board in the picture.
And I was like WOAH
Then I was like NOOO way!

Or maybe I'm just silly. Either way, I decided to post it as a post so it's all IN YO FACE!
Kidding.  I do not wish to be intrusive.
Please read this! It's amazing! Well worth it. :)

Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son ?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, you believe in GOD ?

Student : Absolutely, sir.

Professor : Is GOD good ?

Student : Sure.

Professor: Is GOD all powerful ?

Student : Yes.

Professor: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent.)

Professor: You can’t answer, can you ? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD good?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Is satan good ?

Student : No.

Professor: Where does satan come from ?

Student : From … GOD …

Professor: That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student : Yes.

Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn’t it ? And GOD did make everything. Correct?

Student : Yes.

Professor: So who created evil ?

(Student did not answer.)

Professor: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don’t they?

Student : Yes, sir.

Professor: So, who created them ?

(Student had no answer.)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son, have you ever seen GOD?

Student : No, sir.

Professor: Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?

Student : No , sir.

Professor: Have you ever felt your GOD, tasted your GOD, smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any sensory perception of GOD for that matter?

Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.

Professor: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student : Yes.

Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.

Professor: Yes, faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Professor: Yes.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?

Professor: Yes.

Student : No, sir. There isn’t.

(The lecture theater became very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don’t have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can’t go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.

(There was pin-drop silence in the lecture theater.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?

Professor: Yes. What is night if there isn’t darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light. But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and its called darkness, isn’t it? In reality, darkness isn’t. If it is, well you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor: So what is the point you are making, young man ?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Professor: Flawed ? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good GOD and a bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can’t even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.

Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?

Professor: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor. Are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?

(The class was in uproar.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The class broke out into laughter. )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable.)

Professor: I guess you’ll have to take them on faith, son.

Student : That is it sir … Exactly ! The link between man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that keeps things alive and moving.

P.S.

I believe you have enjoyed the conversation. And if so, you’ll probably want your friends / colleagues to enjoy the same, won’t you?

Forward this to increase their knowledge … or FAITH.

By the way, that student was EINSTEIN.

 Hope you enjoyed this! I know I did. :)

Dimitri

When I first saw Anastasia, my little girl heart melted at the sight and sound of Dimitri.  I'm sure I wasn't the only one, but I Loved him - as much as any little girl can Love.  It was kind of ridiculous, but I was twitterpated by a cartoon character. Yep.  I mean, just look at him!

Ok, so he looks like a total dork in this one. But it's the best one I could find, and I was tired of looking. Besides, his dork-ish nature is one of the reasons I adore him so much.

And when he was a youngin'?  Cutest thing ever!

On top of that, he's a nice guy with a great personality.  I know, how cliche of me to say, but I can't think of a better way to say it.

--He knows how to make a girl laugh - even when she doesn't want to
--He's a little snarky.  Admit it, girls, this is very often a good thing - who doesn't like a little bit of playful banter?

I'm tellin' ya, Vladimir thinks it's quite amusing, too. Just look at that satisfied and knowing expression.

--He's ambitious and has enough confidence in himself to take on almost any task,
--He's strong - I mean, he basically bopped the head off of Rasputin! Look at this!

Then again, Rasputin was kind of a Zombie. Oh, well, it was still a triumphant moment and Dimitri rocked it.

--He dances.  Cutest part in the movie.

Need I say more?  No. But I will. :)

--He's great at starting conversations

--Underneath the snarky, he's really a softy, super sweet, and would do anything for those he loves (awww :P)

--He's kind of a heart-throb

Cute cute cute.

I've talked to a few people about this - mostly Twin - and we joked about me meeting someone who is just like Dimitri, and how I would instantly be swept off of my feet. Pretty much.

Ravings?

Hello.  I just watched Abduction.  For a teen-audience romance/action flick, it was actually pretty good.  It was cheesy, the action was much better than the dialogue, the make-out scene felt painfully long, I audibly laughed at some of the ridiculousness of the hormone-filled-slash-awkard-teen-romance...

and, yes it has Taylor Lautner in it.
And no. I do not rave about Taylor Launter.
Every time I see him I can't help but think:

PAHAHAHAHA!

Oh, dear. *flicks small tear away*

What a dork. What an adorable little dork.


That, and those teeth.
Too. White.
(Nice cheeser, PS.)













And then again...

Can I just say how much I absolutely adore when a guy smirks? It's a lot.

Bikes are starting to get to me, too.

This almost made me wish I were her, for just a second. But only kind of. It made me wish for the situation, not necessarily this specific love-boat.

Ok, so I gotta admit he's a good looking guy.  And a fairly talented actor, though not absolutely amazing.

So no, I do not rave.
But do I smile?


Ya, just a bit.

One of those...

It's just one of those days.  Yesterday was similar.  I just need to get this out of my system so I can more effectively continue my day, and typing is faster than writing.  Plus, I thought this might make some of you laugh a little, because I'm feeling a bit snarky.  Also, I seldomly write a "random what Kiki is feeling" post anymore, so I decided now would be a good time.

I hardly ever feel like I'm actually *looking* for something to happen that would make me upset, but yesterday and today it's like part of me was searching for a reason to be peeved.  I had to really remind myself that I was just in a mood, and I wasn't actually upset... but part of me wanted to be upset.  See the inner conflict, here?  I do.  There were things that would make me laugh or help me feel content and subdued, but the on-edge feeling didn't go away, and still hasn't.  I don't want to feel angry, but, as the post title refers to: it's just one of those days.

I feel like everything has the potential to go wrong, and that it probably will.  The pragmatic side of me realizes this isn't true, but I still feel it.  I just want to be lazy and have everything fall together perfectly for me.  But then again, just sitting around makes me anxious.  Inner conflict, again.  I feel kinda twisty inside because my brain can't decide what it wants.  I probably  just want to turn off.

Yes, that's it.  I want to just shut down and make my brain stop intruding on my inner peace for a bit.  So much has been going through my head that I think it's starting to scream at me that it has had too much stimulus.  Sorry, brain, I promise after finals you can have a few hours to veg.  But, even then, I don't think it will fully veg.  I'll still be thinking 5 miles a minute.  I wish it would all just

STOP.

But it wont.  Silly brain, you don't know how to give yourself a break.  I need to teach it how to.  But, the thing is, it's MY BRAIN, so I actually can't *teach* it anything.  Does anyone have some advice on how to make your brain leave you alone for a few hours??

I just feel tense and frustrated.  I probably need yoga or something, but I don't feel like stretching or deep breathing right now.  Maybe after I've actually been a little productive I'll feel better.  But I've had a hard time feeling productive with all of this stuff rushing through my head.

Which brings me back to the original reason for this post.  I just need to get it all out.  But, really, it's impossible to get it ALL out, isn't it?

How frustrating.

It's just one of those days.

Think Big

Ether 3:14: We talked about a LOT of stuff with this verse in class.  In fact, we spent a whole lecture on it!  One thing I really liked was an overlying concept of the discussion.  After talking about all of the notions, ideas, and various explanations that are out there, Brother Griffin told us that it is these ideas that encourage us to THINK BIG.
Our Gospel is not a closed-minded one.  It encourages thought and progression.  We ponder things we read and learn and apply them to ourselves in different ways - sometimes in a different way every time we learn it.  We are open to new applications and ideas. Think Big. :)

Ether 3: 26: Because the brother of Jared had so much Faith, he saw God, as well as the Vision of the Prophets.  God "could not withhold anything from him" because of his Faith.  Just like the brother of Jared, if we have enough Faith, God will reveal things unto us that will help us in our lives.  I like to think that, if we have sufficient Faith, not only will He not be able to withhold the insights, but He will want to tell us.

Moroni 6-7: These are great chapters about the Miracle of Forgiveness.  The verses I specifically liked were: 6:8; 7:9; and 7:28-29.  I like 7:28-29 a lot.  Moroni asks the question: "have miracles ceased?" and then follows it up with "For He answered the ends of the law, He claimeth all of those who have Faith in Him."  Claiming refers to saving us from the law or "answering the ends of the law."  Without Christ's mercy, our imperfection would condemn us.  But, with it, we are miraculously saved.  This is the miracle of forgiveness.  It is an every-day miracle. And how thankful I am for it!

So, have miracles ceased?
"I say unto you, nay."

I hope all of you are enjoying these last few chapters of the BoM just as much as I am!  Happy studying!