Tuesday, October 27, 2020

The Visual, A Dream

 THE VISUAL, A DREAM.

Combining memories and making new.

Recalling what it was like with you

On the bench, green stripe

Helping me to see the light

To be the light

I wanted to be.


Fondness

But conflict

I was pressing against

Expectations

Both and un-expressed

Like I wanted to tempt

My mind away from the known

Denied desire, maybe.

I wanted to be.


I couldn't see

The light.

It began to creep in and we realized

Just how drowsy for the hours we

Had led on and on.

The whole night was gone.


Recollecting

Reconnecting

Redefining

What heart pining

Could mean in my new context.

Too complex.


Too unknown to know.

Mind away from the known...

Could I never have been

There with that certain ring.

Denying the thought for the feeling of aught.

Same then

Same now

But not quite

Different how, now I see more light.


Whole light

But not quite

Just closer to full

Or not?

So I thought a right choice would make full.

Why must the mind reach away from the known.

Is it dullness, is it suspense

I want to be shown


It's hard to say just what.

Denied desire, maybe.

But denied by an else or denied by myself.


Combining memories and making new.

Remember what it was like with you.

What I was like with you.

I see.

Who I wanted to be.

Recollecting.

Reconnecting.